FINDING MY LOVE FOR MOTHERHOOD
Motherhood hasn’t been an easy journey for me and to be completely honest for a long time it was something that I didn’t really even like… I wanted to love being a mom so much but it was so hard for me and still is sometimes. Over the past 6 years of motherhood I have been on the big journey of finding myself, changing my thought work, finding new perspectives, and truly finding a love of motherhood. If you don’t love motherhood, it is okay, I see you. You don’t have to love it…I have been there too and am right next to you in the journey of finding your love for it.
my little family
I am married to Zach who is my steady. He brings me down when my anxiety is high, is my rock when the world is crashing around me, and is the realistic one to my crazy. I have three little kids who I adore so much. King is 6 and has taught me more about myself than anything in life ever could have. Lettie is 2 and is my sunshine. She brings so much laughter and happiness into our home. Rosie is just under 1 and she is our contentment. Rosie is everyone’s favorite and we all may or may not fight over who gets to spend time with her.
Breathing in moments is something so huge to me. I try to find at least two moments every single day whether with my kids or without them that I can fully sit in, soak in, and breath in. Breathing in small moments daily like chubby fingers reaching in the cookie dough or even the way the sun is hitting the street has helped me change my perspective of motherhood.
love of making bread
I have found a love for baking bread, everything from sourdough to wheat and even kamut. I love the way that it takes time, is a process, and the way it makes my home feel and smell. I love the memories that are created around baking with my kids and even having a quiet kitchen some nights and pulling out hot bread from the oven.
I have my degree in nursing and worked as a pediatric RN for 8 years doing home care for chronic kids taking them to school. My love of nursing came from my sweet special needs brother and caring for him. He inspired me to go into kids homes and to figure out ways for them to still do things that kids love like goingdown slides, playing tag, and so many more things. After years of taking other kids to school the opportunity to take my brother to school and be his nurse was presented to me. I called this time my bonustime with my brother because I would have spent it taking care of another child. After my brother passed away in 2018 I decided to take a break from nursing and stay home with my kids and it has been an amazing thing for me to soak in everyday caring for my own kids.