If you follow me on Instagram I yesterday I talked about how I am having anxiety lately about going back to work in a few weeks. (I went back to work last year after having King, but for some reason it is so different this school year). I have been working all summer teaching dance and coaching cheer, but that is just 3-4 hours at a time and I can even bring King with me if I need to. I don’t know why I am so afraid… Is it the fact that I can’t just leave work and run home to him if something goes wrong? (I ride the bus to school with my patients so I can’t leave if there is an emergency), is it because I am afraid that my life is a hot mess right now and throwing one more thing at it is going to push me over the edge, or is it because I won’t be taking Matt (my brother, you can read about him here) anymore after 3 years of only taking him. I really don’t know what it is, all I know is that I am having nightmares about it, not sleeping at night, and it is making me crazy and anxious all the time. I know that I am being a baby and a wimp and lots of moms work and their kids are totally happy and great! My mom will even be watching King so it isn’t that he isn’t in good hands… You guys, really it is pushing me over the edge… What should I do!? I will only be working 1-2 8 hour shifts a week as a nurse, teaching dance for 4 hours, and coaching high school cheer… It is really only the nursing job that is stressing me out… I’m confused. I’m scared. I’m frustrated. I’m ready to break. Someone tell me that it will be okay! Someone tell me that I need to put my big girl pants on and be a grown up. OR Someone just tell me to quit my job and be a stay at home mom 😉
Until I decide what I am going to do, I will just keep looking at pictures in amazing pencil skirts like this one that make me feel like a hot momma even when I have ate icecream all day long and should be in my “fat pants”. But really you guys, this is the most flattering pencil skirt that I have ever put it on my body. The gathering on the sides hides all the spots that you don’t want people to see. Perfection! You can snag it in my shop! Also, can we just talk a second about this necklace, it is a TEETHING NECKLACE. Yes you read that right. Could you die? King loves it and I love that it looks like a statement necklace. WIN WIN!
Happy hump day my friends!