October 13, 2014

BEING A MOM ISN'T EASY… AM I READY!?

La Bouchic Boutique Crochet Sweater c/o // Pink Blush Maternity Fleece Lined Leggings c/0 // Sole Society Booties c/o // Apple of My Eye Necklace c/o
Photography by RS Photography and Design – Facebook – Instagram

Happy Monday friends! If you follow me on Instagram, you know that I stayed with my sweet brother Matt this weekend while my parents were on vacation. Can I just say that being a “single” mom (I say single because yes Zach was there, but he can’t care for all of Matt’s medical needs. He tries so hard to help, and I don’t expect him to change Matt’s diapers, bath him, or any of those tasks.) I love Matt dearly, but it is trying to take care of him alone. He is the sweetest kid. He always says please and thank you and is so grateful for all the help he receives. I am amazed by my mom, that she can wake up every morning, get him dressed and ready, and rarely complains. She changes diaper after diaper, soiled sheets, lifts him, rolls him, moves him, feeds him, everything with a smile on her face. It is hard, but it is so worth it to have him look at you and say “Thanks so much for getting me ready today” or “Thanks for feeding my tummy”. His eyes beam, and his eyes go cross-eyed because he is smiling so big. Yes there were tears from both of us the past week, yes it wasn’t easy, but would I do it all over again? YES!! I would have formula, pee, face boogers, all of it all over me again to spend the week with my best friend and create memories that may not happen again. I would do it all to scare the pants off of him with the fake mouse that we bought and then laugh for hours with him as we watch the video over and over again. I would change A MILLION diapers to have him snuggle on the couch with me as he laughs over and over at “Fat Amy” in Pitch Perfect. It is all worth it for those happy moments, for those memories, and for the beaming eye smile that he gives.

I know that in a few months I will be a mom, maybe not to an amazing special needs spirit like Matt, but that doesn’t mean it will be any easier. It will have its tears, its fights, and arguments. BUT it will also have its memories, its laughs, and its happiness. No it won’t be easy, but will it be worth it? OF COURSE!! I can’t wait to have the happy and the sad, and to have my own little one to create those moments and memories with.