Too often I find myself comparing myself to others. To the people that I look up to. To the people that inspire me. I find myself thinking negative about myself, my blog, the way I live my life, etc. I wonder too myself, Why don’t I have that many Instagram followers? Why did her post get more comments than mine? How is her life more happy than mine? Why does she look better in that top than me? Why do her pictures turn out better than mine? How come she has kids that she isn’t happy with and I can’t have one baby? Why can’t we afford a house like them? What is wrong with me? UGH! I need to STOP now!! Comparison is so evil. So mean. So demeaning. It takes away happiness. Brings sorrow and awful things into my life. It is not okay!!
I have really took a step back and looked at what I am comparing myself to. I compare my weaknesses to other people strengths. To other peoples happiest moments, I compare my saddest. My trials to their triumphs. I struggle to see my strengths and only notice my weakness. I make my triumphs seem small to others because I don’t want to come across like I am “bragging” or “full of myself”. All this does for me is plays everything I am good at down in my head. It doesn’t allow happiness. It doesn’t let me feel as if I am succeeding! THAT’S NOT FAIR!! It’s not fair to let myself see others happiness, triumphs, etc. and put them up higher than mine. I am DONE! I am going to shout my successes, triumphs, happiness from the roof tops! I am going to allow myself to be happy about what I have accomplished and done.
Happiness is a choice. It is a choice that isn’t easily made everyday, but it is a choice. You have the choice of how you respond to things that happen during your day or that you see on social media. I am going to stop the jealousy of those I am comparing myself to and start being happy for them. It may be really hard, and it isn’t going to happen over night. But I vow to myself that I am going to allow myself to be happy, to be exciting for others successes and to share my successes with others!
If you are still reading this, first thank you for getting through it! Second, do you struggle with comparison? Or am I just crazy?? You can tell me I’m crazy! I know I am 🙂 Love you girl!