September 6, 2013

THANK YOU.

I just want to take a couple minutes and thank each and every one of you for your love and support. It has been more that I could have ever imagined! From sweet words and comments to treats and flowers. You will never know how much it has changed my life. I never knew so many people cared about me and loved me. I never knew how supportive family, friends, and people I only know through my blog could be. You all have strengthened me as a person. I will forever be thankful to you for changing my life.
A quick update. I received a phone call from the nurse of my doctor yesterday which seemed pretty urgent. She first informed me that it was 100% positive that there was no baby left, and that I indeed had a miscarriage. To hear these words again was hard. I thought I could just let it go and place it in the back of my mind and move on, but to hear it again brought back all my emotions. She then urgently told me that my blood type is O- and that if I don’t know for 100% that Zach’s blood type is a negative blood type I need to come in immediately and get blood work done and a Rhogam Shot. A Rhogam shot is for those who are Rh+. This is where the mom has a negative blood type and the dad is positive. Most people wouldn’t see this as a problem, which it isn’t for your first baby. The problem comes in after your first pregnancy and each one after that. The mom’s blood see’s the positive blood cells and attacks them which causes miscarriages. Ultimately the mom’s body is attacking the baby because it does not think it is a part of her.  These shots have to be give within 72 hours of childbirth or bleeding or your body will build up the antibodies against the positive blood type. I rushed to the hospital (my doctors office was closed when I got up there, but the nurse informed me they could give me the shot downstairs) and checked myself in. They couldn’t find the orders which started to make me a little worried, she then found the orders and sent me to lab where I thought I would get my blood drawn then the shot after. I waited about 20 minutes to get called back. I went back and informed the phlebotomist of what was going on. She stated they couldn’t give me the shot. I called the Ogden Women’s Clinic upstairs to see what to do. They told me to have the shot sent up there and a nurse would stay to administer it for me after hours. (that is how important it is to get this shot). I asked about how long it would take to get the shot sent up and she stated an hour… Ugh, this meant I had to hang out alone at the hospital in the waiting room of a closed office by myself for an hour. So the wait started. I played on my phone, text a couple people back and just thought. I let myself just think about it all. I thought about how blessed Zach and I are. How many people truly love us and support us. An hour passed and still nothing. After an hour and a half I was finally called back and got my shot and was sent on my way.
I returned home where I opened my front door to find gifts of love and support. Tears immediately filled my eyes to know that people loved me and cared about me. To know that people were thinking about me. I was overwhelmed with gratitude. I can not thank each of you enough. Each gift was something near and dear to me. I will be forever grateful to each of you. I want you to each know that you made my burden a little lighter today. The weight on my shoulders a little bit lighter.
Zach and I are pushing through. We are moving forward but will never forget our sweet angel that is looking over us from heaven. Thank you again to each one of you for your thoughts, prayers, texts, emails, or just smiles. They have helped us both so much. We would be a lot worse off without each of you so THANK YOU from the bottom of our hearts! We truly love and appreciate every one of you.

Love, Zach and Dani
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